I almost didn’t post a blog today. I had several ideas, all of them bad. And it’s the idea that’s the most difficult part of being a writer. Once an experienced writer gets a great idea, the words spill out like too much water overflowing a cup.
But this week, I had nothing. It’s not that there’s nothing interesting going on. We are preparing for a long trip. My doctor and I are trying to get to the bottom of my problems with balance. (Those funny falls I’ve taken haven’t been as funny as I’d hoped!) And there’s the usual life stuff.
As our friend Carol who died last week liked to say, “Life gets lifey”.
I scheduled several things to publish here and then realized there were problems with each one.
- Was a draft that I’d already published some time ago. Yikes.
- Was too derivative of something I’ve written about before.
- Was a cop-out.
A Blog Post About Nothing, Continues
I suppose you could say that writing about not having anything to write about is a cop-out, too. But I don’t think so. Bloggers and other content creators who churn out material seem to do it without effort. But there’s plenty of effort involved. The aforementioned idea, for starters. In my case, trying to write it well, as opposed to recording or making a film. Battling imposter syndrome. (Who am I to talk about this?) And the lists go on.
My goodness, I love to write. My high school ring has a journalism insignia on it. It’s what I’ve always wanted to do. My novel-to-be, my first real attempt at fiction, is in its eighth draft. One day, when it’s released to the world, it will be the realization of my oldest goal. No, that’s not true. My oldest goal was to marry one of the Osmond brothers. Sometimes one’s goals need a tweak!
So, it’s not that I don’t want to create something brilliant in this space today. It’s that I don’t have the mental bandwidth to make it happen. There’s too much else going on in my tiny brain, what with all the 1970s song lyrics and other clutter taking up space. It’s nothing extraordinary or unusual. It’s just life. It gets lifey sometimes.